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Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
10:15 pm	this is beyond needed. i dont exactly know how to feel about certain things right now. like school. i sit here in my room and its kind of like a bad dream that im here. this may be odd, but i was looking in the mirror and i was like 'am i just visiting someone? or am i actually living here?' so far away from anything thats comfortable, its unimaginable. but then i think, when i go back home, is it gonna be as comfortable as i dream it up to be? i know deep down i have to take that chance. i took it last year and it didnt work out quite like i wanted it to. then i took a leap and came here, and this isnt working out either. i just dont know what i want out of anything. i feel really lost but also almost content in that feeling because i know its in my hands and no one elses. if i fuck this one up, its all on me, no one else to tell me what to do, and thats kind of cool in a sick demented way. maybe im growing up and im starting to be able to decide things for myself. or im just running back home to mommy. who knows. my idea of what i want to happen starts the moment i pack my boxes. then i go home and from there ill be totally clueless. i think what will happen is i work my ass off everyday to try to save money for the next school i go to. which right now looks like centerpoint- a school for massage therapy. i THINK thats what i want to do for a career. but like i cant emphasize enough, i dont know yet. im gonna live at home cause quite honestly, i dont think im ready to get an apartment and move out completely. ill admit, im not ready to live by myself and/or a friend. plus living at home means free rent, free food, free everything.. for the most part. i just think that to handle my own problems, ill need that alone time every once in a while too. but for sure, working will be my top priority. i need to start growing up and actually save money and not depend on mom & dad for every expense. i wont even begin to explain anything going on with keith because no one seems to care whats going on with that. anytime its brought up, people just say i talk about him too much, which hurts, but life goes on. it hurts when people roll their eyes or say gross when he kisses my cheek, or when people who i thought would care cut me off when i tell them something nice he did for me, and so on. but like i said, life goes on. not everyone will be immensely happy for us, and thats fine. i just wish they could have what i have so then i can be happy for them in return and not get negative feedback. whatev but all im gonna say is it will be damn good to be able to see him whenever i just need a hug. thats what im looking forward to most about our relationship, he understands me and thats something really new to me. someone who looks at me and gets what im thinking with just a simple raise of my eyebrow or a small grin on my face. on that topic though, its weird to think that im at the age where this might be the last person i date. its kind of scary, but a good scary. its an incredible feeling when you cry tears of joy because you realize you may have found the person who proves every other dickface guy wrong, the guy who knows how to treat you, knows what you need and want and knows how to give that to you. its also an incredible feeling when deep down in your heart you know you would do absolutely anything to make that person feel alright. just the little things count. its insane, i cant even explain it. back to the main concern, this is crunch time. i have to go talk to someone about withdrawing from north park, have to inform my parents of the progress and let them know when i have to be moved out of here. TOTAL: 17 days left in chicago: 6 days of classes. 5 days of slacking off. 4 days of partying/weekend/bumming around. 2 days of finals. that's insane. this is the true countdown. i cant believe i'm going home, but also can't believe i'm leaving this incredible city. i definitely want to come back here later in life, whether it be to just visit the people i met here at npu or to do all the touristy things i haven't experienced yet just for one a weekend. chicago will definitely be on the top of my favorite places list for quite some time. i will miss being able to look out my window to see the skyline. i will miss being able to walk a few feet to see my best friend. i will miss being able to walk a couple more feet to watch movies with awesome people. i will miss suffering in the cold just to get my daily dose of nicotine. i will miss seeing someone familiar yet someone new every corner you turn. i will miss having aim conversations with someone sitting two feet from me. i will miss the hour long phone conversations with friends. (but those will be turned into face-to-face conversations, so its ok) i will miss new friends that i feel like i've known since middle school. i will miss not understanding my math teacher, playing third grader games in an 'academic success' driven class, or being completely clueless about assignments in writ. i will miss sleeping in on tuesdays and thursdays and sitting desk with heidi for hours. i will miss my roommate being extremely loud at 6am. and taking care of her drunk ass on weekends. i will miss screaming obscenities out the window. and squirting people will waterguns and hearing their shreeks. i will miss jewel/target runs just to get junk food which eventually goes to my thighs. and of course, i will miss the shitty-ass cafeteria food that i've grown to love. but i look forward to my new beginnings. i just hope im making the right decision. yet, i can always turn around and come back. <3 Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: The Working Title- Something She Said (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
1:49 am	home was not what i expected. but maybe it wasnt meant to be that way. brandon is dunzo. i wanna curl up in a ball and hide from the world. keith means more to me than i can even describe in words. ashley is hilarious and i love her. just thought i would throw that out there. i have a constant feeling of sickness and i dont know whats wrong. something feels off in my heart. i dont think i should be here anymore. transferring at semester is more than an 80% chance now. i failed my math test forgot about a paper. i dont see kate enough anymore and it makes me sad. I MAKE NO SENSE. why is life so complicated sometimes? why cant i just give everything up to God and accept the fact that i shouldnt have to control ANYTHING? why do i feel like this? i need sleep. and a lot of it. Current Music: edwin mccain (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 19th, 2005
12:49 am	oh man, that road trip to madison was SO worth it. the looks on their faces were priceless and i wouldnt trade those four hours for anything in the world. perfect timing. perfect music. it was excellent. now i just have four days to get through and my life will be golden for just one weekend. seeing the whole gang makes me nervous, but wow, i cannot wait. the weekend is fairly jampacked already. *getting shitty at the woe place friday night. *the talk with my parents saturday morning. *lunch with brandon saturday afternoon. *another drive back show saturday night. *family lunch on sunday. *visiting the newly engaged couple sometime during the weekend. IM SO EXCITED. hopefully this week flies by and next time i realize it, its friday and we're driving through my neighborhood and im back in the one place that i can really call home. we must first get some diapers cause im pretty sure ash and i will be shitting our pants the whole way back to minnesota. then we must buy kleenex because we'll be crying the whole way back to chicago. poor joel. he's gonna be scared of us. this post made no sense. Current Mood: excited (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
6:56 pm	wooooooow long time livejournal! so basically i havent updated this effin thing in like six months, but i decided to start. college is fun. im liking my room, all the new people, classes, activities, the city, the weather (ok i said it).. the life. minus my roommate, but dont get me started. she kinda sucks. everything with brandon is tough but surprisingly good. definitely not as bad as last year with steve, but who ever thought steve would compare to brandon in ANY way!? not me. i want to hear from all of you girls! since we didnt really get to see eachother much this summer, i still wanna share some information. alison cone northparkuniversity 3305 w. foster ave cpo #2067 chicago, il 60625 much love! :) -al Current Mood: tired Current Music: chicago is so two years ago-fall out boy (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
11:49 pm	random thoughts *is there some sort of award for most boring state? if so, minnesota wins. *north park stuff is stressful *i need a new job asap *zirk called then 10 minutes later pete called 'just to talk' -strangely cool *my computer freezes every 5 minutes, annoying. *why isnt the timing right? the timing is never "right" - if stuff is spose to happen, it should no matter what! *my ass is sore from riding the exercise bike for 15 minutes straight *i kind of wanna see star wars, just cause hayden christensen is fine. *i decided im back on some sort of diet *i want a tattoo, i just wish i had the money RIGHT NOW *my car is broken. and this time i wasnt even in it. thats all. i have no more. plus ill see you guys in a matter of hours anyway. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
11:49 pm	stole this from ash's xanga Ten Random Things I've Thought About Today: -i wish that dream was real even if it was way fucked up -i said outloud, 'how silly' when i read liz's email -i hate cleaning, and ______, and this weather -i hope south dakota is decent this weekend -i want/need to lose more weight -i hope the interview goes well and i get the job at the chan dinner theatre -i love rap, in the words of xzibit 'i smoke like a chimney'..why? -i need to pray and speak to Jesus more often -i need to finish that new scrapbook.. -i need to sleep, but its only midnight, the night's still young..  Nine Favorite Foods: -pasta with garlic alfredo sauce -brownies -chips and salsa -strawberries and pineapple -potatoes in any form -diet coke (okay, i know its a drink) -grilled chicken -cucumbers -beef jerky (good one ash) Eight Little Known Wishes: -i wish to travel the world -i wish april 2nd had progressed into more -i wish i got accepted already -i wish my dvd player didnt break -i wish i didnt have constant thoughts about him -i wish a guy would say 'you complete me, you had me at hello and i love you' and MEAN it (jerry maguire was on the other day, shut up) -i wish i knew what i was doing with my life -i wish it was summer Seven Things I Like About Myself: -i like my laugh/smile -i like my capability to really listen and understand things -i LOVE my sleeping skill -i like my sarcasm -i like my height (just in the middle, ha) -i enjoy my unconditional love for my family -i like my... thats really sad, i cant even think of seven.. help me! Six Things That Annoy Me To Death: -snapping of gum -cockiness, especially in girls who have no reason to be -excessive swearing (ie: too many fuck's in one sentence) -sunday drivers -three missed calls and NO voicemails -slow internet Five Names For My Future Children: -Hannah -Brady -Julia -Austin -Cody Four Bad Things I've Done Before: -i have gone an entire week stoned -i have driven drunk -i have stolen a good amount of money from my parents -i have had premarital sex (not bad for others but for me, since i swore myself when i was 14 i wouldnt do it) Three Things I'm Horrible At: -i'm horrible with confrontation -i'm horribly at studying -i'm horribly with keeping an early bedtime (early=before dawn) Two Things I'm Missing In My Life: -i miss my tan (good one again ash) -i miss God and my old church buddies One Thing I Really Want: -i really want to feel loved and completely content with myself Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Young Gunners - cant stop wont stop (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
2:09 pm	its ashleys birthday and we should all party Happy Birthday to You Happy Birthday to You Happy Birthday Dear Ashleyyyy HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! i love ya hun! hope your day was fabulous without the sensational six there to join you.. just remember im thinking about you on your day and i cant wait to see you. much love, me Current Mood: geeky Current Music: isnt it obvious? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
1:24 am	in a fucking weird mood family-i remember one time i was riding my bike down the street as my brothers played football in the yard. i thought it would be really cool and awesome of me to see if i could ride OVER a kickball. well that didnt work out as well as i thought, being 8 years old, and i bit it into the curb, hitting my head, and ending up with a huge welt on my face. i remember another time i was sleeping at my aunt and uncle's house in WI, in a room with my two cousins, lisa and adam. us girls were just about to fall asleep when adam farts really loud. i kicked him in the stomach and we got pissed. he was all innocent, saying it wouldnt happen again, when ten minutes later he farts again. i remember another time when i was younger my grandparents had this huge oak tree with an awesome swing on it that we all used to fight over. i was fighting with my cousin lindsay for a turn but then backed down. she got one, someone pushed her really high and as shes in mid-air i watched the rope break, she went flying, landing on her ass in a fit and i was so glad that wasnt me. i remember my uncle roy, RIP, out in my grandparents driveway looking at something and then heard the high pitched squeals of a rabbit as he beat the shit out of it with a shovel and how emotionally scarred i was after that. i remember two thanksgivings ago, we all had just finished eating our meals and were moving onto dessert when my grandma comes out and asks who wants sherbet. counting five of us who raised our hands, she says, "only 5? okay ill make 8!" and i remember two christmas' ago we were all sitting around after opening presents, with pretty christmas music on when all of a sudden, rap comes on. it was run DMC with some christmas rap and from then on we still cant figure out what the hell my grandpa listens to. so this christmas we put that cd back in and a few of us busted a move. friends-i remember back when we would go to katelyn's grandpas house a lot in the summer, where they had that huge water trampoline. people thought it would be cool to jump off the bench trying to make it onto the tramp. joe challenged becca olson to do this and in a graceful attempt, becca managed to come short and smack into it. then sam saffrin threw a fish at me. i also remember one time in tennessee ashley and i thought we should be bad-asses on a church trip and shoplift. hell, we paid for everything else and i nearly ran out of money, but these capri pants caught our eyes in the gift store. after like 20 minutes of discussing our gameplan we grabbed a shitload of clothes to 'try on' and went into the dressing room together. we stuffed the things in our backpacks and hightailed it out of there. i remember drinking for the first time and how royally fucked up the entire night was. the girls were all at liz's and we were preparing for the night, i remember my first shot and how disgusting it was but i just kept going. ashley spilt vodka down her shirt and made me take a picture of it. then a bunch of random people showed up, joe and his drunk friends included, chris carlson was attached at the hip with the reindeer, and jake terzich took out his teeth. i also remember one time we were smoking weed and i kept feeding liz's dog bread and ate about 20 pb&j sandwiches. then one time, while stoned, we destroyed corey's driveway in a futile attempt to show him how much he sucks with dog food and ketchup, things you couldnt see on blacktop. i remember causing ruckus and caution-taping stopsigns on the most useless road in america on a monday night. i remember some chick who didnt know how to smoke at a concert and allie ended up as an ashtray. i remember some people hotboxing my basement and a week and a bottle of air freshner later, it still smelled. theres more in this brain of mine, but thats all i got for now. a more normal post is on its way, dont you guys worry :) Current Mood: nostalgic (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 11th, 2004
1:30 am	its incredible when life hurts so bad, but you know youre okay steve and i broke up tonight. it was completely mutual. its just simply not the right time to try to carry on this relationship when things are so hard and we thought it was in our best interest to just end things on a good note. we got all of our feelings out. we laughed. we cried. no huge fight. no hurt feelings. no awkwardness. we both got to say things that we never thought we would have to say one last time. saying thanks for all the things we learned from eachother. saying how much we meant to eachother, remembering good memories we had, knowing that things will be okay between us. i told him that i loved him as a friend and he said 'thank you, i love you as a friend too and ill never stop.' i told him i remembered how embarassed he was when he wrote me that poem and how much it touched my heart. he said he meant it with all his heart and only had good intentions. i told him he has been the only boyfriend so far that actually took care of me. he told me that i taught him so much as he started to cry. i told him i could never forget a redhead and he said i would never have to forget him. he told me he would never forget dancing with me in 7th grade gym class and he never thought we would have so much fun as we had. he made me smile when i told him 'im positive that someday you will make someone else as happy as you made me' and he said, 'i dont want it to be someone else.' i dont know why i smiled. i want to have hope that someday i will find someone as great as steve, but that someday cant seem farther away. i want to have hope that this someone IS steve. i dont know what else to say about it. having closure with a touch of hope is the best feeling i could have considering the circumstances. Current Mood: mellow Current Music: warehouse- dave matthews (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
1:23 am	catastrophies are made to make one stronger, i swear so i suck. there are so many negative thoughts running marathons in my brain. and it seems to be that the people within my family, who once told me that if anything goes wrong family is always there to depend on, have turned their backs. my brother andy STILL wont talk to me. apparently, "hes been so busy" but thats a crock of shit and a cop out if you ask me. he knows why he wont talk to me and hes using that against me as if its my fault. my moms trying to keep this leash around my neck to keep me around the house for as long as possible even when shes made it crystal clear that she secretly wants me out of the house. i have nowhere to go if that happened. yet right now im seriously considering filling up my tank with gas and driving as far as it will go and start a new life in some other state. i wanted to go to luther this weekend. so i politely asked her if i could and all hell breaks lose. things from the past resurface and i find myself balling my eyes out in front of her and getting even more depressed than before. she doesnt want to 'pay for my pleasures' and doesnt find it to make much sense as to why i would want to go visit my boyfriend. so we scream and yell at eachother like usual and i leave it that 'she knows whats best for me and what i need to clear my head and escape myself, so if she wants to say no, she will have to deal with my bad attitude.' i know thats somewhat of a guilt trip but sometimes i just really need to get away from all of the stuff back home and be around things that make me happy. i dont get why some parents dont just ease off. i feel like relationships i thought were strong ones are falling apart. what with my mom and my brother, who i considered one of my best friends. and lately it feels as though my relationship with steve is slowly crumbling. i dont know why but it just seems like i cant keep a strong relationship or friendship going with anyone besides you five girls. i have 24 hours to search like mad for another prospective job. i have to call some places to get info, i have to go to some places, i have to go to a place at my moms work (without being harassed by 80 yr old men!) and ask them for help, i have to search, hunt and scramble. then maybe she'll consider it and wont be so mean to me anymore. oh ps audrey- your mother called today, i have to call her back tomorrow :) haha yay ryan (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 28th, 2004
10:42 pm	im hella angry so i was debating whether or not to get gas at super america (.2 seconds from my house) or going to qwik trip (5 minutes from my house but cheaper) i decided i would like to drive a little bit so i go to QT. i was thinking, i just cleaned out my car cuz i thought it died, i wonder if i have my registration. i check and yes its there. then i get to the intersection of lake lucy and galpin blvd. i stopped. then i turn onto galpin and as im turning i notice, wow theres a sherriff sitting right there. he follows me until right in front of prince's house and flips on his lights. okay, pull over, roll down window, wait. he comes up, asks why i think he stopped me, and i told him cuz i didnt completely stop at the intersection. then he tells me, "im gonna give you a citation and also, take your mardigra funtime beads down from your rearview, its against the law." sweet, officer. jackass. so i continue on and go get gas. then i look at the sheet/ticket he gave me and its fucking 120$. i have ZERO DOLLARS to my name. luckily and hopefully ill get the job at the general store considering gail's called twice in the last two days to set up an interview. and i talked to her on the phone. but still, FUCKING ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY DOLLARS. gahhh. cops are jackasses. i definitely need to take this out on something. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: like a virgin- madonna (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
12:04 am	one more weekend recap! i agree with ash.. it always feels like im updating on certain weekends i have. not putting in my thoughts like i used to. soo lets see. friday night audrey and i went out for dinner at old chicago. saw joe and that was strange. i told her this but i will say it to everyone: when you see an old flame and you get NO butterflies, you are OVER him! :) so we ate, talked about fun crap, allie came and sat with us, it was fun times. we leave and i go home to wait for steve. he gets there within half an hour and we go pick up george at his aunt's house. we talked to his relatives for a good half an hour (first relatives besides parents, cousin and grandma that ive met--weird) went back to his house and some guys came over. everyone but steve and i started drinking and got mad annoying and disgusting talking about all these sexual things they could do to girls. i felt way out of place being the only girl. then finally audrey and allie came over. had a short girl talk, went home to get my car and sleepover stuff and went back. allie came back. we hung out for a bit then steve and i went to bed. so did everyone else. i actually didnt fall asleep until like 4am, steve and i had some good talk and some things were said that made me cry, but out of sheer happiness. (ash knows what im talking about-BREAKTHROUGH!) woke up on saturday to steve's ridiculously annoying alarm on his cell phone and left. i dont really remember what else i did saturday afternoon.. i think just watched the michigan football game, showered and hung out. then i waited for allie to leave erics so her and i could get food. we got subway, went back to her house and talked. then went to target to stall before going to the BOX SOCIAL! bitches. NEWSFLASH: i finally drank hard alcohol again! the first time since new years eve and man, i was feelin good. allie and i had a little too much fun, then miss becca showed up and it was a damn good time. running around making fools of ourselves in front of julia and kelly. ha. thennnn DRAMA OCCURED! wont go into detail since half of the people reading this probably heard already. i am proud of allie. :) then steve and i went to bed. woke up on sunday around 11 and i went home around 1. then yeah my parents came home and i ate dinner with them. saw pictures they took from my cousins wedding and find out that the aunt/uncle and cousins ive NEVER met want to come to minnesota in the spring. sooo after 18 years, one side of the family makes an effort to see eachother, they want to return the favor? what is this. thatll be strange. then i went over to becca's along with allie and katelyn and we headed out to meet the boys to go see friday night lights. such a good movie, i teared up at some parts. BE PERFECT. dont sit next to boys that know everything about every sport and point out the faults in the movie. then we parted ways. monday i woke up and got ready. then time passed and i ate dinner with the parents. got the professional wedding pictures back and i love them! theres one of me and my brothers that is soo GD adorable, its like im protecting them from any girls. ill show you all or try to post it somehow. went to katelyns and hung out with the girls. around 1030 we went to mystic with steve, koller, julia and luke. i won 30$! quite exciting. my luck might be back. twas a quick trip to the casino, we were out by like 1230. got back and steve came over, fixed my computer and we hung out for a bit. then he left. today i woke up, got ready and went to say goodbye to becca. did that and went to say goodbye to allie. did that then came home to get ready for the football game at the high school. i had like 4 layers on cuz its so cold out. went with steve and met up with luke. the football team is in sections and totally kicked edina's ass. then went back to steve's and hung out for a bit before i went home. now im home. things to look forward to: 1. going to EPC to try to find job apps 2. scrapbooking with my cousin on saturday 3. going to olaf on saturday to hang out with those girls for a pre-halloween chillout night 4. handing out candy on halloween, cuz i dont wanna make the trip to madison 5. going to luther the weekend of the 5th 6. going to michigan for one of my cousins game! big house baby! yay. this is the end. Current Mood: sore Current Music: pain- jimmy eat world (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
11:58 pm	i thought this was cute :) Love by ruby mae Your name Your partner You two are In love Your meeting was by Chance They are your Best Friend You are their One and only Your love will Never end Quiz created with MemeGen! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 17th, 2004
9:58 pm	remind me NEVER to take nyquil again. doubt is the only thing running through my head. failure, i suck as a daughter, being left out, im alone. basically i have no choice. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
4:53 pm	another weekend of visitors, and now im sad i really need to get used to this i-get-visitors-and-have-a-night-life-then-they-go-home thing. i have so much fun when people come home random weekends and we go out like old times. once it happens and it ends, i get really bummed because its back to the normal boring life. i really need a job too. i need to get my mind off things and work my ass off, make money and be busy. have something to fucking live for. okay ill stop being depressed and write about what i did this last week. monday-dont remember. tuesday-i went to my cousins house again. we were gonna go shopping but by the time i got there it was already 8 and the mall closed at 9. soo we stayed there and watched veronica mars. which is a weird mystery/comedy show. then watched real world and laguna beach. as much as i HATE these shows, im addicted. then i went home. wednesday-we finally went shopping and i found NOTHING but perfume that i didnt need. ugh. im pretty sure im also addicted to hot chocolate. everytime im at a gas station or by a caribou, i get some. its nuts. thursday-i had to go to the police station (story below) and then i dropped off some film to develop and then worked on my anniversary gift for steve. damn its already been 5 months minus the little breaks we've had. yes. it feels like its been a year. then i went to archivers with my mom/aunt/cousin and attempted to start a scrapbook for my brothers wedding. yeah that just didnt really work well. i wasnt in a creative mood and i was tired. then liz came home, met me at epc and we went to see hilary duff's raise your voice. wow-i hate teeny bopper movies. we commented on the movie every 5 seconds and laughed so loud im pretty sure the people behind us were gonna punch our throats. friday-i cant really remember much. i know we did stuff but yeah im brain-farting. OH YEAH we watched cryin' ryan which was the dumbest movie ever but it had a good storyline. or a good motive of trying to teach people to open their eyes to child abuse. yeah. then we got ice cream. and came back to my house and watched what lies beneath. i got that movie like three years ago either from my grandparents or audrey, i cant remember, and i hadnt watched it cuz it looked too scary. turns out it was just eery. i enjoyed it. then liz went home and steve gave me a drunken call. saturday-i cleaned like a banchee. i cleaned everything, like the entire fuckin basement. im a lunatic. i sat around most of the day, watched the michigan game (they won.. again!) and i watched baseketball cuz thats the best movie ever. then around 10 oclock theres a knock on my window that scared the shit out of me. it was pitch black out and i couldnt see anything so i just stared at whatever was out there. i walked upstairs to the door and turned the light on. still couldnt see anything. then i open the door and steve's standing there. it was quite a surprise cuz i didnt really know that he was coming home or coming to my house. i was psyched. we watched a movie, goofed around like retards, i gave him his present then he left. sunday-i couldnt wake up for church but oh well, when can i? and liz called and we got indian food, which is still upsetting my stomach. then went to down in the valley and i got two really good smelling candles and then did random shit. she just left and now im back to being a loner. good thing audrey's in town this week. and i babysit jenna on tuesday. so thatll be something to look forward to. i have to call the general store to see if theyre hiring cuz i turned in my app on thursday. soo yes police story- well it turns out when i filed my police report i didnt talk to a 'responsible' cop so they had no record of the case at all. SO i had to call the head police officer and he wanted me to come to his office and he was going to take an accurate report of it. he had already been doing some research stuff on it so it was a little easier. so i go in, and he starts recording my story and asking questions. so i tell the story, blah blah, then when im done he whips out an envelope and tells me that he has 6 pictures and i have to try to identify the guy. FUCK. i tried sooo fucking hard to get the image of that guys face out of my mind and NOW i have to look at him again!? so yeah he lines them up. i say no to 1 and 2, the guy is 3, then no to 4, 5, and 6. he asks me how sure i am that its number 3 and i tell him 100%. so he tells me that hes gonna try to get the guy in for an interview/meeting thing later in the day. then i get home and he calls and says the guy came in and confessed to it, and the officer told the guy that if he did it again he would spend a night in jail to "scare the shit out of him" and the guy also got one count of indecent exposure and one count of something else, seriously this is horrible im losing my memory. but yeah, all in all, it turned out fine and i dont have to deal with it anymore. yay. seriously, anyone, i need to get out of here and visit someone. i need a trip, a break, something! so yes, if youd like a little bit of home tell me and ill come! the end. 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Sunday, October 10th, 2004
6:10 pm	so on friday i drove down to gustavus to visit koller. the drive was short, so it was easy. i got down there and he showed me his dorm. then we drove to mankato to get dinner. we went to noodles and i havent had that for so long. it was damnnn good. then we went back to stpeter and called up katelyn to watch the twins game. we went over to her dorm, and i love her room. its so awesome. but i think everyone with a dorm room has a cool room! so we watched the totally embarassing twins game. then went back to matt's room and just talked. we ran into a drunken ian. that was interesting. then i left around 11:15 and drove back home. on the way out we ran into ian again, along with maggie and stopped to chat for a minute. that was fun, a little minnetonka reunion. then i drove home and made it back by 12 and got a drunken phone call from steve. hah. saturday i woke up and showered. then got ready. watched the first half of the minnesota/michigan game. then i headed off with my grandparents, my mom, my brother and his girlfriend to the bush rally in chanhassen. that was amazing. he finally came around 3 and spoke for like an hour. it was good to hear just his side of everything, as oppose to the debates on tv where i get his and kerry's views mixed up. on the way out i saw ranwick and tommy. how could i have guessed that they would be there? got home and ate dinner. then found out that MICHIGAN WON! once again.. in the fourth quarter! aud-do you remember how awesome that game was last year!? oh man. then i started watching the twins game. that was bad. my dad started a bonfire and i sat out there with him, had a couple beers, burned some old homework/worksheets from 10th grade. ha. then yes, came back inside and watched the old drive thru dvds and that brought back good memories. YOU'RE FUCKIN NEXT! then got another drunken phone call from steve. talked with him for a good hour, ill talk about that later. then i went to bed. today i woke up around 11. then did nothing. and took a nap til 3. i'm lame. i ate dinner with my parents and watched shallow hal. today was boring. oh and i talked with liz, that was good. she's coming home this weekend, yay visitors. tomorrow i need to go drop off all my applications. especially the one to the general store. that would be damned exciting if i got that job. and maybe search for some more job apps now that my car is 'fixed.' okay so when i was talking with steve we got on the topic of sex. just joking we talked about all the places that i've had sex and all the places we would want to have sex or whatever. he asks me how many times ive had sex and i said quite a few, that at one point with joe it got to be an everyday thing but sometimes there were spurts where we'd only have sex once every two weeks type thing. so he was like 'so basically youve had sex over 200 times' then he kept repeating 'oh my god, thats a lot of sex' over and over. i started to feel bad for even telling him that and i was like 'whats the big deal? if you think about, ive had sex that many times, but with ONE person.' and hes like 'yeah but thats still a lot of sex.' and i was like, 'okay then whats the problem' and he was like 'i dont know, i guess its just kind of sad when your girlfriend has had sex over 200 times, and none of them have been with you' and then it just ended after i got really quiet cuz i was kinda upset and he was like okay its not a big deal anymore. it was just interesting and weird. ha. good story, go me! have a good week you guys! ill be seeing some of you soon! whoopee!! <3 love Current Mood: drained (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
8:09 pm	a moderately active day.. so today wasnt so bad. i was pleased. i woke up at 11 and moved my car because the company that's redoing our driveway was coming after 1130. i was also asked by my parents to take 'before' pictures of the driveway. so i stood in the middle of the street in my pajamas with messy hair, like an idiot, taking pictures of my driveway. i am cool. thanks mom and dad! i showered and listened to awesome music in my bathroom for a good hour. then the driveway company came and oh, theres 6 guys tearing up my driveway when i walk out of the bathroom in my towel. they ring the doorbell asking if i could open the garage. wonderful. i got ready and dressed and walked upstairs to watch what they were doing. i was sitting on the bed by the window and they definitely saw me. i felt like a tard. so i left earlier than i should have to head over to my cousin's place in minneapolis because i was scared to get stuck in traffic. then as im just exiting onto france ave my car starts acting up. that was a task and a half. i finally got to her house and got the tour. such a cute house. we sit down and just talk about all this different stuff. shes definitely my favorite person in my family. we laugh all the time, about the dumbest shit. so fun. then we head over to southdale to see Ladder 49. i guess moviefone was WRONG about their times and we were 45 minutes early. so we walked through the mall and got ben and jerry's. yum cherry garcia. we talked about past relationships with boys. i thought it was crazy that steve and i have broken up and gotten back together twice. but her and her exboyfriend broke up/got back together like 11 times over 5 years. holy crap. then finally we went into the theater and were excited to see this movie. joaquin phoenix is oddly attractive. my review of ladder 49: okay, so it starts off with action and has a bunch of flashbacks. the acting got cheesy at times but overall it was about a 7.5 out of 10. it made me appreciate all the sacrifices that public service people make, like firemen, police, etc. but honestly hollywood, did you think you could get away with killing off the main character because 'it wasnt possible' to save him anymore? ahh thats HORSE SHIT! (i apologize from the bottom of my heart that i obviously ruined this movie for you, but to be honest, its not worth seeing when youre lead to believe that Jack was going to survive. roar.) i liked the plot of the movie, the heroic tale, but i was truly disappointed that he had to die. oh well, ill get over it. ;) then lindsay and i went to chipotle. there was a huge ass line and a little boy balancing on the barrier things that made us nervous but he was adorable and kept smiling. the lady in front of us in line was like, 'i think youre his new girlfriends' haha. so i got my burrito and finished all of it but like three bits. but seriously, when is it possible to finish those things. then we went back to her place and i met her roommates. one of them is a girl who like hates america and wants to live in germany (?) and the other is beyond hilarious and looks like caroline rhea from sabrina the teenage witch. i can definitely see myself going over there on a regular basis to hang out. the anti-america girl sat down and turned on the vice presidential debates. then she starts bitching about how much bush doesnt know his information and blah blah. then my cousin and her go at it about stuff that i told myself to stay out of. then they get into it about the troops and she says, "from my experience, anyone in the service is an idiot and just goes with mass belief." my cousin went off and was like, "thats a dangerous statement, im really offended" because she knows like six guys in the army. then this chick comes back with, "a lot of statements are dangerous." that was my cue to leave and i motion for my cousin to walk me out. once we get outside shes like, "ill buy her a one way ticket to germany, see ya later!" haha shes hilarious. some people can be very ignorant, whatever. i dont care. so i head home to find our driveway-waiting-to-be-finished and i have a parking spot now! they paved over some of our lawn and gave me a spot to park so i dont tear up the grass! i was honored. haha. and i watched real world and laguna beach. and the twins won the first game of the playoff series, so thats a bonus! whoopee. so yes, im starting to get really sick and i hate it. i woke up the other morning with swollen lips and eyes. and this morning i woke up and my knee was really sore, i must have slept funny. but all is well, otherwise. i guess. now its on to the unending job search. PLEASE GIVE ME IDEAS OF WHERE TO WORK, I NEED THEM! thank you. love you all Current Mood: complacent Current Music: we're gonna win twins (twins theme/fight song) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 29th, 2004
7:05 pm	so yesterday morning i woke up to a voicemail my mom left me telling me that it would be a good idea to file a police report about that guy that harassed me on friday. i called her at work and she explained everything, gave me the number for the chaska police and i called them. i had to leave a message with the head detective and he called me back giving me another number. i called them and they gave me the dispatch number. i gave a shortened story of what happened and a female police officer called me back. i explained it all to her and she was completely disgusted. she told me that she would check into it and they would call me with the outcome of it all. then vision world called and my glasses were in. so i went and picked them up and i love them! i havent put my contacts in since i got them. ooh. then my mom comes home and tells me some mysterious information about that guy. supposidly he is in a treatment facility for sexual harassment and his sexual fantasies 'are a little out of whack.' that creeps me out beyond belief. i cant even imagine the worst that could have happened and i feel lucky for nothing too drastic happening besides a few exchanged words and glances. well steve comes home on friday! along with becca, allie, koller and liz! and im sure other people as well, but im just not sure who. im excited. very excited. it will be a good breakaway from the normal sitting at home by myself routine that ive got goin. this is a boring entry. im a boring person. its a boring life i lead. and hey shitheads, i sent you all emails wondering if you had pictures of any of us on your computers or cameras, and i got no responses. so if you do, PLEASE send them to me! i beg of you. hah. much love from minnetonka! Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: joy and pain-rob base PUMP IT UP! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
9:07 pm	pictures   ( Luther Pictures ) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
8:08 pm	so it was only two weeks... so i dont even know where to start.. so i guess ill begin with the weekend recap. ( Luther Trip: September 17-19 ) Current Mood: satisfied Current Music: seek up- dave matthews (1 Comment |Comment on this)